That’s Stella

In two hours, I am going to meet Jason’s new girlfriend. We were seeing each other intensely earlier this year, but now he has become one of my best friends. I’ve met his family and my dad has added him as one of his Facebook friends so there’s no backing out now. There are no romantic feelings whatsoever. How do I know this? After I realized the thought of shagging him repulsed me, I figured pursuing anything romantically serious with him was probably a bad idea. I should set things straight. He is one handsome guy - whenever I introduced him to friends they would harp on about how good looking he is, but what can I say? There was just no sexual chemistry.

He’s been seeing this girl for a month and called me on Friday to say things had progressed and were now using the “bf” and “gf” terms. Spew. I am really fucking nervous about meeting her. Jason said to me “She knows all about you - and she’s going to treat you like a princess”. Jason hasn’t said the most positive things about her so I’m slightly cautious.

I keep thinking… What should I wear? What if she hates me? What if I hate her? Do I tell him? Will this effect our friendship? Will he chose me over her? Is this going to last? Is it worth becoming friends with her? Oh god… I hope I don’t have to hang out with her every time I hang out with Jason. I hope she’s not too pretty. I wish I was slightly threatening looking….

The other day, our friend Johnny got back from a trip overseas and called me to catch up for a drink. We usually hang out in our group of friends that consists of me and five boys. I met all the boys through Jason because he went to college with them and I am super close to all of them but am definitely the odd one out being the only chick and foreigner. Johnny asked “So how are my boys doing?” But he quickly went to correct himself and said “Or should I say, how are your boys doing?”.

But am I losing a boy? Is Jason no longer one of “my boys”? I am insane.